bah humbug

I have been having lots of pains and contractions so I was hopeful at today's 36 week checkup. I am 50% effaced and not dilated AT ALL!! A C Section is looking more and more tempting to me.... but I am trying to be patient!!!

Tomorrow is the last day of school before fall break, 2 1/2 weeks off for the kids! I am excited for not getting them to and from school and homework and all that.... but I hope I can survive the kids home all day everyday so pregnant. I'm sure I can!

And Saturday is October!!! YAY YAY YAY for October!!!!

And this weekend is conference! woohoo!!!

a light

at the end of the tunnel!

The end is near!! I now have my C Section scheduled, so now I know I won't be pregnant after October 30th! The countdown is so on! I am still really hoping he will come not only on his own but earlier!! I would also love to be able to go trick or treating and not be in the hospital on halloween. But it's not really my choice now is it!?

PDD-NOS

Kyla got her official diagnosis today from the developmental pediatrician. PDD-NOS, an autism spectrum disorder, basically mild autism, or atypical autism, or high functioning autism. This is the diagnosis she was given last year but I guess now it is official. So when she turns 6 she most likely won't get therapies through state anymore because she doesn't have typical autism. Oh well. I am looking forward to less. Kyla is a quirky little girl and we love her so much!!

getting ready

Today, Jaxon and I went over to my mom's to do some projects! I finished Canyon's blanket, made a crib sheet and made a car seat tent! My mom is amazing and awesome and I love her so much!!!

Saturday my awesome family gave me a baby shower. My sister in law Hillary made this cute cake!!

monotony

life is feeling a little monotonous. i need a change. a big change. any ideas???

JK. i have a big change coming and i feel so ready but at the same time i am scared out of my mind. am i ready for four kids? am i ready for another newborn/toddler/preschooler/school-ager/teenager. i know it's obvious but it's crazy how when we have another baby, it's not just another baby, it's another human to raise. it's a lot of money, time, and effort. it's also a ton of love and fun and adventure.

i'm also scared of the unknown. when will he come? will he come on his own so i can deliver vaginally? can i handle labor again? it's been 5 1/2 years since i've done that. i wish someone would tell me the day and time that he will come so i can plan and prepare and get on with my life. i hope my house will be clean the day he decides to come. i am trying to keep it clean but it's not working too well. in the back of my mind, i am thinking i will end up having another c section and i guess that's ok.

i am really excited! i hope all the kids will get along well. i hope i can do this. i hope i am ready.

life lately

Maelie started her first soccer league! A lot of the other kids seem to have been doing it for years... I didn't realize she would need cleats, ball, and shin guards, hehe. She has had 2 practices and 1 game. The game today was HOT!!! And they lost but I was pretty proud of Maelie, she kept on going!!

Maelie got Sideways Stories from Wayside School (loved that book when I was little) from her book orders. I love that she reads to Kyla. Kyla is also starting to read.

We are getting ready for Canyon!! I had about a million contractions yesterday from cleaning all day long! I am glad they stopped, even though I'm excited for him to come, he still needs to do a little more growing. :) But we are borrowing this awesome bed for Jaxon so now Canyon has a crib! (he won't need it until he sleeps through the night) I also quilted him a blanket, just need to bind it and make a sheet!

33 weeks!!!

7 weeks left!!!

49 days left!!!!

hopefully less (but probably more)

good thing they're cute

overwhelmed

school, piano, soccer, musical theater, therapies, pregnant! what have i done? I will never do this again.... I don't know what I have gotten myself into but it's too much for me. I am trying to gage whether it's too much for me or too much for the kids!! So far, I think it's just too much for me!!! And I think I need to get a job!